Last day of school

Today was the last day of school, the kids had a good time and Madalyn had a great time its her last day of elem. school. She will start in Middle School in the fall. They had a thing graduation today and the whole time all I was thinking was about the day she was born, about how scared I was to be a mom and how happy I was that I was not pregnant any more. I was surprised about how big she was and how much time she spent awake, as I had been told newborns sleep a lot. I was in pain, I was in love with this tiny baby I had only just met hours before. I was sad every time they would take her to the nursery for a "check". I still do not know what they ment by that as they never took any other my others for "checks" every few hours, maybe it was because I was so young, maybe it was USA hospital, who knows. I never thought about her growing up that day, I never thought about her moving on to middle school, high school, getting married, having babies, I never thought about any of that the day she was born, yet on days like today all I think about is that day almost 12 years ago.
I really do wish their childhood could last just a little longer, while I love watching them develope into the people they are going to become, I do not like that it happens so very fast.
Maybe that is why I have 5, because it goes so fast. Because I am not ready to not have babies in my house any more, because every life is worth it!
Now, I have made my self cry,
I am going to go make dinner!