Last day of school

Today was the last day of school, the kids had a good time and Madalyn had a great time its her last day of elem. school. She will start in Middle School in the fall. They had a thing graduation today and the whole time all I was thinking was about the day she was born, about how scared I was to be a mom and how happy I was that I was not pregnant any more. I was surprised about how big she was and how much time she spent awake, as I had been told newborns sleep a lot. I was in pain, I was in love with this tiny baby I had only just met hours before. I was sad every time they would take her to the nursery for a "check". I still do not know what they ment by that as they never took any other my others for "checks" every few hours, maybe it was because I was so young, maybe it was USA hospital, who knows. I never thought about her growing up that day, I never thought about her moving on to middle school, high school, getting married, having babies, I never thought about any of that the day she was born, yet on days like today all I think about is that day almost 12 years ago.
I really do wish their childhood could last just a little longer, while I love watching them develope into the people they are going to become, I do not like that it happens so very fast.
Maybe that is why I have 5, because it goes so fast. Because I am not ready to not have babies in my house any more, because every life is worth it!
Now, I have made my self cry,
I am going to go make dinner!

10 Years

Tomarrow at 7pm Jason and I will have been married for 10 years!! We have been through so much in that 10 years. New life, Life ending. We have laughed, we have cried, we have grown together. When I look back on our wedding day I realize we were just kids when we got married. Were we ready? I don't know, what 17/24 year olds are? We made it work though, we wanted it to from the very start, a few years before we married, with the birth of our 1st little girl. We wanted it to work for her, to be a family. We decided when she was one that we were ready to get married, and we did before she was two. After we were married, we had a son followed by 2 hard years of job loss. Then a 2nd son and the fear of him being born too soon, with that Jason and I hit our one rough spot in our relationship and for the one and only time really talked about getting a devorice. I think we both felt it was over. Then we found out we were going to have a 4th baby, a 3rd son. We decided to put our relationship on the back burner for a while and that might just have been what our problem was in the 1st place. But when that baby was born and had to fight for his life Jason and I fell in love all over agin and began to rebiuld what we had. It didn't take long and by the time our baby came home from the hospital 9 weeks later we had a strong bond again. We were happy and not asking for any more out of life. We lost so of our family members along the way and a few years later our 5th child was born our 2nd girl. We have fought for her side by side and have again grown more together through the hard times. Since her birth 18 months ago we have had more loss, in income, in jobs, in family. But one thing has always been there. Jason and I share something very few people do, Love, Trust and the abilitly to compleatly depend and be there for the other. There are no words to say how I feel about how much we have been through together, I do know this though no matter what we have always came out stronger on the other side.
So come on life, we are ready for our next 10 years!!

It's been a long time....

I lost the time to blog with the bith of our 5th child, Haleigh Victoria Greer was born at 34 weeks and 6days, on November 10th, 2008. She was 5 pounds 2 ounces. And yes It's a girl. She is 18 months old now and has out grown a mutitude of problems. Others we are still dealing with and I will write more on that soon. I am really getting back into my blog as I believe this will help me. Even if I am the only one who ever reads any of this. that is what a blog is really for right? The blogger to get things out that they can't express any other way any where else. If its not then well it is for me~