19 weeks

Wow 19 weeks and 2 days pregnant today. Just about half way through cooking this turkey, wile I know I am more than likely over half way done, I don't like to think of it that way, I would really like to make it to 40 weeks, heck 38 would be great. This will however be my last time ever being pregnant and wile I don't want any more kids, just to think I will never grow another baby or feel one move frome the inside is a little sad, but I am still willing to give all that up, for one to be healthier, there is no way having a baby every 2 years for 10 years is healhy!! I don't care what doctor may say it's unhealthy, I bet there isn't one that can say it is either, I need a brake and it looks as if getting my tubes tied is the only way to get it. I had fully accepted that after Landon I was never having another baby, becasue of the C- section and the pain I had after, I never want to go through that again, and I hope I still never do, but being pregnant againg I now have to deal all over again with those feelings of never having another one, so I just want this one to last a bit longer than the last 2. With all of that said, I have just about lost all hope it will happen for a few reasons.
#1 I feel already that this kid is as low as it can go without being born.
#2 It feels like this baby weighes 10 or so pounds already (when I know it is closer to just 1 pound).
#3 I am so tired already, and this is the months you are suppose to "glow" and feel great. There has been none of that.
#4 and this one is the biggest one, I had a Contraction last night. Not a very painful one and it didn't last long, and I believe it was just the one.
Now I know some women do have contractions all through their pregnacy, without it being a big deal, and they go full term or even past, and that is great for those women, I however am not one of those women. I had my 1st contractin with Landon at 19 weeks 4 days, with Aden about 19 weeks too. With Landon I was even told it just doesn't take a whole heck of a lot to send me into labor, I do not have to have strong regular contractions and they do not have to be every so many minutes apart. The only thing I do have to have is a few and they get the ball rolling pretty fast. Last night I layed down and drank some water, to listen and feel to be sure that it was just the one, and I did't feel any thing and listening to my body I felt I was ok to go to bed, so that is what I did. I feel like crap this morning, tired and gaggie (is that even a word). So wile I am hoping for another 17-20 weeks I am not betting on getting it.