Back to the ENT

I take Landon back to the ENT in the morning. It is just a check up for his ear tubes. I am not sure how many times we go back, if it is like the GI where we go every few weeks at first and then like now it's every few months, or if we won't have to go back unless there is a problem, I hope visits to the ENT are few and far between. Don't get me wrong she is a great doctor, but a doctor none the less, I want to phase out all the doctors Landon sees except our regular Ped. That is when we well, be like other moms and Babies. That is what I am hoping for, I have thought about this for a wile, when will I be a mom of 3 boys and 1 girl when will I become a mom of a boy scout, a mom of blond boys, a mom of a green eyed girl, a mom of anything other than a preemie, I have came up with all by my self that we will be like every other family when we don't have to see so many doctors all, the time and maybe when we are not on any meds that he take eveyday, that might be the day we become normal, I don't know I am hoping one day, when I am around other moms and they are talking about all their kids do, I will think to my self, but no say out loud that my kids were preemies, I want to never think about it, but I am sure it will always be in my head, how could it not. I love my babies and I would not change how they came into the world. The way they got here made them who they are now and made me who I am too. I just want to be normal, and have normal kids with normal everyday lives, no drama and no weekly doctors appointments!